I'm back!

I'm back from my short trip to Germany. I thought these few days away wouldn't have that much of an impact on my routines and momentum, not true! Life keeps happening and has thrown all kinds of challenges at me these last few weeks and right now I really struggle keeping up with what I put on my plate. I have no idea how everything seemed still possible two weeks ago and now I'm ready to cut, cancel and quit all kinds of things. I know these moments of overwhelm are not the time to make decisions so 'breathing through it' it is for now.

I'm also clueless about what to write a blog about but the fact that I have now let go of my consistency of the first three month is just another stress factor and I can feel the mind set of "what ever"

creeping in. So this is all I got for now just to say "I'm still here!"

My numbers have also plummeted not just a little bit and I'm now also officially behind on my 50.000s. 

On the bright side I want to say, that all the things I have put in place to help me get back into the spirit when things get rough, I have taken advantage of after my return. I showed up for my one on one, even though I felt I had nothing to talk about. I came for the beginners class on Monday and I showed up for our morning traings sessions on Tuesday. Its not perfect and I'm still really struggling but I realize how valuable these tools are and I'm grateful for them.

By the way, I'm still recording my numbers with my app, another tool that has really helped but my phone doesn't let me post a picture in blogger anymore. I know this can be figured out but right now I just want to get this done. I'm trying hard to be really selective about what my priority is at any given moment and getting the blog out is just that for now.