Priorities

I can feel anxiety creeping in as my time gets ripped into patches and I have to decide what to designate these patches of time to. Now, sticking to my Kung Fu routine is getting harder. I feel disappointment in my swindling numbers and that is mostly because my pride in these numbers was so great for the first two month. My list of tasks that I decided are priorities now is growing. I hate saying NO and love saying Yes and I'm only starting to embrace the fact that these two belong together, if I like it or not. I started listening to "The Subtle Art of not giving a F..." by Mark Menson and he stated in his book that when we make decisions to do something, we ultimately choose the problems we will be dealing with to. We tend to make decisions based on romantic ideas, which we anticipate to become true once we have arrived but that "destination" in reality is just another day in your life with new decisions to be made and other issues to be solved. For example, choosing to start a business is exciting and usually triggered by the vision of making a decent living. But the day you have built this business and successfully earn money you will be still dealing with problems. These could be related to logistics, space, time, personal or your own motivation but no matter what, you'll be getting up every day, dealing with one thing or another. If you decide to move to another country, it is probably fueled by a shiny vision of living happily ever after in this exciting new place and less by what your daily routine will look like living there 20 years down the road. If you are envisioning having a family, you are most likely thinking less of the sleepless nights, constant worries and having to compromise a lot and so on. I find this approach very interesting, although I am a dreamer and I also see value in that. I made a lot of decisions in my life that I probably would have chickened out of if I had thought about the problems first. There is so much happiness and excitement in saying yes to a crazy idea and my life is rich because of it. If I had thought years ago about if I want to have the problem of writing a blog every week and doing 50,000 push-ups in a year I'm not sure my answer would have been an enthusiastic "Heck ya!" 

Long story short, managing my time comes down to managing my priorities and I'm strugling a bit. Dreaming big is great but I will try to think a bit more about certain problems I choose to tackle in my life!