Intent

Another period of struggling to keep my routine!

My numbers are down again this week, but on the other side, I celebrate that I have done some Kung Fu each day since we started the year of the snake, no exception, even when I didn't feel right. Yesterday was the first Monday I didn't get a blog out! No super big deal as I'm sitting now to get one out, but again it shows me the struggle that lies ahead. 

Another issue right now is becoming friends with my weapon. I find myself practicing everything but my braid form. It's not that I don't like swinging it or even wanting to become better, but I struggle finding my intent. Our exercise recently, when we were introducing a teammate to our weapon form and talking them through each move, highlighted that even more. I was so happy to have found a few techniques I was able to string together into a beta version, but now I really wonder what I'm doing. When I was trying to explain the intent of each move, I realized that all I'm doing is swinging a rope to intimidate, disarm and a bunch of fancy ways to change the direction. I mean, what is the intent behind wrapping a rope around your neck, turning, switching stances, and letting the rope unwind the other way?

I'm intrigued and want to try a few more moves but I really struggle justifying building or keeping these things in my form. 

I guess learning to deal with different situations and controlling the motion of a rope or chain would be useful. 

My intent for my form this year may be more in the exploration of how I can manipulate the flow of my weapon than in the creation of a logical, imaginary fight choreography.

Ok fine, writing blogs is a helpful tool! I can fully embrace my intent now, thanks to my self-talk!😉