Time to move on...



It's a strange transitional time! On the one side last Wednesday I switched into restart mode and I feel extremely good and motivated about my 5 day streak of top numbers.
But on the other side, I'm grieving a little bit the end of a fantastic year. 
For all but one requirement I have a strong urge to get started or keep moving, but when it comes to my weapon form it's actually the opposite.
I have done so many repetitions of my fan form specifically over the last two months that it feels strange this is no longer part of my daily routine. I have not started on my new weapon form yet as I have been feeling this resistance to move on. One reason is that I really like my fan, when I put it in my hand I just do things with it and it feels always good and natural. Another reason is the sudden feeling of being alone with this. The process of building a form with somebody else was so fun and rewarding. It felt exciting to come up with crazy ideas, being able to message somebody about it, chat and discuss and listen to the other idea which in turn sparks new thoughts for me. This also has had quite the bonding effect, as there is nobody else out there, that will look and listen to your excitement about a kung fu form, with the same enthusiasm and interest as you, unless its your partner that cares just as much.
As many things in life those experiences are invaluable and make the best memories but as we often say all good things must come to an end. 
Lastly there is hesitance because of the big unknown. I decided on a weapon I haven't tried before, not that this is different from the last two years. But part of me is like why not just take an existing form and weapon and wants to abort the decision I made when I was still blissfully and hyper focusing on my fan. The other part says anything can be a weapon and it is my job to figure it out!
So before I introduce you all to my new weapon and its possibilities I'll have some catching up to do. Its time to put my fan to the side and make room for new experiences and challenges to come.




 

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