I guess the titel could be "timing"!

 Today my calendar says 9 am -10 am write a blog. 

In the spirit of self respect, I'm going to get this done.

At the meeting on Thursday I picked up on Sihing Kohuts advice to schedule a time in the calendar for writing a blog. At that moment this sounded like the solution I had been waiting for all along. Amazing! 

I know of course this has been mentioned before by other team mates, in podcasts and plenty of other live improving resources I have been exposed to, but for what ever reason it never really resonated with me before. 

The interesting part about this is, that we never know when information finally penetrates and makes connections. The same I found is true when hearing instructions in class. 

There was a class a while back that I got quite frustrated with. We were asked to work on a combination with our partner and I had several instructors stop by to address a problem they were seeing. I listened to the first one and tried to address the issue, I got stopped again by somebody else for more advice that seemed unrelated to the first. I then tried to make sense of both and to apply the new information but another instructor offered feedback and I felt entirely overwhelmed and frustrated because attempting to improve it all right away was making my brain hurt. I finally also got my partners fife cents on the topic and all the sudden I felt like the dots were connecting. I realized after the class how important it was to hear these instructions from a number of people, at different stages of their journey and with a variety of words chosen to explain. I can't pinpoint anymore which words and at what time, made what brain cells fire, but I realize that there is so much information I receive on a daily basis that just gets repelled and never actually penetrates to make connections. So much is dependent on hearing the right words at the right time and even from the right person at the time.

Now, feeling like the connection has finally been made is not a silver bullet either because intellectually understanding a problem or knowing how to address it is only half the battle. In my training it means to now physically train my body to make the movements right and developing the feel for it. 

In my organization of time and life I understand logically how giving each task a specific, as much as possible realistic time slot, might present a higher success rate, rather than carrying around a to-do list that never gets done as it is an ever growing list not ever meant to be done.

But I have yet to figure out how to turn on my creative juices on a schedule. Sitting down this morning made me freeze in front of the screen. My blog writing is scheduled for 9 am but there was nothing in my brain that seemed worth writing about. 

I don't know if this is going to be a solution to my blog writing issue and over all time management problem, as I'm very much feeling that I'm always just reacting and stressing over putting out fires rather than living in a zone of being on top of things. But I have recently remarked on these suggestions, to schedule my tasks!, coming from different sources and somewhere between all these repetitions it clicked and I decided to try it and for better or for worse this is my blog for today! 

It is now 1:48 pm, life happened in between and again its not perfect but one things is being checked off, not on my todo-list but in my calendar for the day.