controlling anger




Today is the day I sit down and write my long overdue blog, a lot of things have been finalized and I was able to put a check-mark on, now I will have the head space! 

As I settled down with my coffee this morning and got ready to type, I received a text message from a previous friend, actually the one I blogged about before, it was a relation ship I "needed" or wanted to mend. The message left me entirely outraged, angry and in disbelief and my plans to write my blog seemed to have gone out the window. No more space in my head to think of anything other than how angry I am. I went outside and did yard work being full of "hate" and feeling gross as a result of it.        I couldn't stand myself or better my emotions and thoughts, which admittedly were destructive. I tried breathing through it to calm my inner dragon. Being out there trying to find a way to control my rage I thought of my requirement to mend a relation ship, and of my 1000 act of kindness, I also visualized our black-belts bowing, symbolizing power (fists) and control (open hand). Remembering all of this helped so much and made me aware that I do have a choice on how to react and who I want to be. 

It feels odd to write about my personal issues with other individuals but I feel like I was able to utilize some of what I have learned in my Kungfu training effectively and I didn't have to fight! I'm feeling so much better now and even a little bit proud, so I thought this is still worth sharing! 

On another note I realize I'm supposed to post my numbers and I have to admit keeping track of them  has completely fallen of the wagon again since we came back from Germany. I will post this without numbers, my apologies to the team!

Comments

  1. KhonaJuly 4, 2024 at 1:21 PM

    That’s the whole point of what we do- so we never have to fight. The more you learn in Kung Fu the better abled you are to handle conflict without fighting. I’m proud of you, great blog!

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  2. AnonymousJuly 4, 2024 at 1:23 PM

    Anger is one of those emotions that gets a bad rep. I think it’s important to listen to what our anger tells us, and sit with it, and feel it in the body. Also good not to bite the hook and react from it.
    I think you did an awesome job.

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