(un)tangled thoughts

  As described by several others on the team, my "why" has changed a bit over the years. Although the original reason that made me join all of you on the matts is still true today.  My "why" has evolved and just become stronger, what was started as a 2 hour a week physical activity has become space and time for: -belonging and building community   -building discipline -to challenge my self and leave my comfort zone -to learn about and discover myself  -to be present -to learn self defence -to be creative -to be a role model to my boys All of these are my reasons and I could probably find even more but one phenomenon has stood out to me early on already and has been more noticeable the last couple of weeks again. My Kungfu training provides the space and the time for "emptying my mind"! I don't remark on it absolutely every time I go to my classes, but every single time I came in being stressed or anxious I finished the class without any of it. That doe...

My theme for the Year of the dragon seems to be accountability. I knew early on that having Leon join the IHC team will be great for holding myself accountable, as I wrote about in a previous blog. The decision to choose the fan as a weapon has led to the idea to attempt a partner weapon form and with that, another opportunity for even more accountability. After a timid mentioning of the idea followed by a few days of humming and hawing and questioning, if it is a smart move to attempt to work together with someone, knowing I will be physically and mentally absent for two full month, the question was, are we doing this or not. My answer was still indecisive and noncommittal, "I'll try!" The response to that came quick and was only fair, "we are either doing this or not, there is no try!" And boom thats what I needed: commit to it first, than figure it out!😁 Now, A few weeks into this year I feel super excited and certainly committed. What seemed like a scarry i...