the struggles I chose

 Well, I started a blog a few days ago about how I define a black belt, but it's now another one that got stuck in the draft pile. It's the 5 th draft I have to finish yet. But I'm behind blogging this week with no time to dig deeper into the topic. I have to spread myself pretty thin right now, and the Canada Day demo is big on my mind too. After a week of barely any reps, it felt good to get in some extra time at the kwoon this week. 

Today I went, and I was completely scatterbrained coming in. I thought I would just hyper focus on my demo, but then Todai Ferris and I spent most of our time working on our fight choreography. The question of whether we would be ready to present our fight choreography at our demo next week caused more anxiety. But I have to say that working on it today was a lot of fun and made me actually forget the time and everything else going on for a little bit, (even though I wacked myself twice with my bokken)!

Life is still very busy, too much for me right now and I'm currently debating dropping some stuff from my plate. I have some big decisions to make in the next few days, but I'm trying to breathe and realistically consider the worst-case scenario if things fall short, rather than just quitting something out of panic because it seems to make my life so much easier.

I also try to remind myself that there is no real emergency I struggle with, it's just an accumulation of tasks, logistics, and decisions that I myself chose to take on some time in the past.