(un)tangled thoughts

I knew last week's biggest challenge would be to deal with all the distractions coming at me. What are my distractions though? Coming from the frame of mind of the previous week anything and everything that takes my attention away from kung fu was deemed to be a distraction.  It's true, my brain likes to hyper-focus once it gets excited. You could also call it the shiny object syndrome or I have been told this is my ADHD brain. (I'm not diagnosed by the way and am not planning on, nor do I actually know a lot about neurodiversity). But I do recognize this week more than ever how my attention shifts almost seamlessly when I immerse myself in certain situations. Last week, having had four opportunities to train at the kwoon gave me a high and my focus was on Kung Fu. Everything seemed perfect, except getting ready for my market was way too hard to do. I didn't have the fire or drive to create a ton more stuff or even figure out my setup as I usually do. To my surprise, I ...

Coming to the end of my second week, I want to make sure to pencil this down, to remind myself in the near future of how I felt these last few days. I'm exhilarated! I feel proud, courageous, strong, and inspired. I start noticing the flow of the rhythm in my new daily routine. My muscles are sore pretty much all the time and so tired and raw at the end of each day. But so far those sensations feel like a pat on my back, evidence of my achievements, and my first ever 1785 push-ups and 1800 sit-ups in less than 14 days. In my 43 years, I have not managed to do half as many as I did in the last 2 weeks, that I'm sure of.  Another highlight of my week includes the appreciation of my daily walks. Admittedly I started my journey at a perfect time in sunny and mild, false spring-like conditions when everyone wants to enjoy the outdoors. It's been an easy sell to all my friends and family to spend time with me on one trail or another. I didn't go on a single walk on my own yet...

  “Your belief determines your action and your action determines your results, but first you have to believe.”  (Mark Victor Hansen) My journey into the I Ho Chuan team is starting on a rocky road; unprepared, behind schedule, with only a fuzzy image of what is to come, and admittedly an overwhelming feeling of doubt. It’s been a week that this almost unexplainable sudden shift of my mind started happening, like an invisible hand guiding and pulling me toward it.  My “NO” was solid and made total sense to me.  My plate is full and while I’m intrigued and in awe of the journeys others seem to make, my truth was: “this is not the time to take this on, someday MAYBE.” Truth is a funny thing, it seems so simple, if only it was one dimensional. When you believe something and you say it, you ultimately speak YOUR truth. I didn’t lie, I couldn’t do this! But what happens if somebody with a different perspective and belief talks to you, and describes their point of view, wel...