(un)tangled thoughts

I'm really feeling my nerves currently with the upcoming Chinese New Year and the start of the year of the horse. I have decided to attempt to grade this year, which is terrifying for so many reasons. Looking at the list of requirements and evaluating how I did in the year of the snake, I realize that while I'm still miles away from the numbers I need to achieve next year, I can see how I could be successful for the most part. I'm very aware of my patterns throughout the last 3 years, and I have been thinking of ways to prepare and how to keep more of the momentum. Not that I think it will be easy, but like Sifu Brinker says: its not easy but it's simple, you just have to do it.  The biggest problem I have and worry about is blogging. I'm not getting better at it. It's not even the blogging itself, or the writting I can come up with something every once in a while. The main issue is the insane time I require to write an entry, which is just not sustainable if I...