(un)tangled thoughts

  I finally settled on a weapon and I may have some regrets.😜 I was still humming and hawing over the choice of my weapon for this year until last week. I played with a bunch of different ideas but at the banquette I started eyeing the fan and decided this would be a good weapon to travel around with, as we will be gone to Germany for two month pretty soon. When I learned Toudai Ferris chose the fan as well, I first was taking this as a sign to choose a different weapon and leave this one for another year, but Jason made my brain go wild when he asked "why don't you guys make up a fan-form together?!" While this is an exciting idea it is also overwhelming and the fact that I won't be around for two month doesn't help. Trying to figure this all out without ever even having had a fan in my hand seemed impossible, so I ended up ordering my fan on a whim and I have been playing since. 4 things I have learned about my new weapon ! 1. Fans are loud! Fans are not just s...

Sitting here now trying to force my self to get a final post out, before the year of the rabbit is concluded is bringing up a lot of conflicting emotions. Every time I finally sit down to write a blog I have to first get past my guilt. Guilt because its been too long since the last one but also because there were countless things on my mind these last two month, some breakthroughs but also quite a few frustrations that I now wish there was a record of. But there is also the continues problem of posting my numbers. I hate starting my blog with apologies and explanations of why I did not do well but it seems a necessary step before I'm able to allow myself to acknowledge all the things I'm proud of and there are a lot to!😁 Just like probably most of us who finished their first year in the IHC, I'm super proud because this has been by far the most active year of my almost 44 years of life. While I won’t be able to give any kind of accurate numbers on my requirements, I know h...