(un)tangled thoughts

Ok this is not the blog I had in mind nor am I sure it belongs here but I'm way overdue and I need to work my way through this. To be quite honest, I'm dealing with a setback and a blow to my ego. This is regarding my handmade business endeavor which I finally gained some confidence with. 2022 was a great year, I was acccepted into some tough competition markets and events as well as invited to a few. The success was thrilling and motivating and I was all pumped for this year's festival season. Well, I now got my second "not- accepted  for this event" notification, this time from the Edmonton folk fest. Last year I had my most significant success yet with that event and I planned my whole summer around it this year. So why would I choose to write a blog about this and how does it relate to my Kung Fu?  For one I'm having a tough time thinking about anything else and second, part of my personal requirements is to attend at least 6 markets this year and with two...

I must admit, this last week my motivation and my energy took a hit. It’s the first time after two months in the team that I struggled with resistance. The cause for that is rooted in a few circumstances, for one it was spring break which meant an interruption in our routine, no official classes and therefor less engagement. Spring has also sprung and that means a lot of finishing ups while simultaneously planning and starting a ton of new things, my brain is exploding basically. And as if that wasn't enough my hormones have been out of wack and made life difficult for while.  I experienced a few moments of guilt as I did less repetitions of my forms, there were a few walks missing as well and as for my 50,000s, I didn’t always get my numbers in.  Feeling finally like I'm bouncing back I realize there are some reasons to celebrate. While I felt things were slipping and nothing seemed enough and thoughts of questioning, if I can do this after all slipped in, I’m proud to say I ...